I am still a work in progress

It has been some time and I have my reasons but I will endeavour to continue this blog.
Well, when I say continue I really mean to overhaul, to refresh. To take a deep breath and begin again.

I will continue to post my almost poetry, my journal updates, my late night musings and maybe muses. I will use this space to continue to write because I still believe writing is my therapy, but there will be a shift in some of this blog’s focus. Or rather, there is a new influence on its content.

I have been struggling with chronic pain and other debilitating symptoms for a while now and I am waiting for the important surgery to diagnose the truth. At the moment the professionals suspect endometriosis but nothing is certain, yet. In being true to this blog’s title, I will aspire to be utterly transparent in portraying how I feel because of my health and my pain and because of the every day humility of being only human.

It is my hope that my writing will once again serve me in a time of personal crisis, as it did before. And in writing my truths again I hope to realise once more that I am not alone.

I hope to read those I follow again and be in awe of their talent. I miss the feeling of reading something raw, something that captures humanity and being able to point at it excitedly on my screen and say ‘thank you! that’s exactly how X feels’ or ‘wow how do you make the words do that?’. I miss that feeling of pure unadulterated love for the written word and its power. And also the feeling of connecting with someone you have never met on a deeper, human level. It reminds you that you are not alone.

It is also my hope that I can branch out, to find new blogs to follow in the hopes of finding those with endo to learn more about its impact. As I said, I do not have the official diagnosis but there are professionals that think it is likely. That being said, there is no doubt that endo needs more awareness, more voices and more collaboration between people for the benefit of those that suffer from this illness and for the benefit of everyone that has ever been told the pain is ‘in their head’ or to just ‘get over it’.

I hope to make my come-back soon, but I’m still a work in progress.